Heart Failure

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Psalm 73:26

I am weak at heart. Scary movies, live performances, skits, singing in front of a crowd, COM 114 speeches, calling people up, you name it, I can't do it. I get the butterflies almost instantaneously as if I was actually a mutant butterfly man myself.

Just recently, an aura of dread and hopelessness has come upon me. It was very hard to see the light of things. I prayed for comfort and wisdom, but God did not deliver.

He did not deliver the one thing I wanted, but gave me something else instead: His Love.

I've recently realized how much I cannot do without depending on the Lord. My God, provider, portion, and redeemer. The Love that is the only one worthy to be considered true love.

So listen.



Through Him leading me through, I can lead Bible studies, I can pray in front of an entire church, I can share my testimony shamelessly, I can dance and sing, I can act a fool.. and a fool for God I can be!

Lord take this brokenness and piece it back together so that I can become more for you again.

Amen.