Tuesday, November 3, 2009

The Right Words

I always find myself trying to look for the right words to say at the right time. You know, something, maybe a word or phrase, that is so applicable and comforting that you have just become a godsend for that small group member or just a random friend.

I've taken my role as a small group leader and one of the older guys at church into deep consideration. My actions and words echo. When it comes to judging, there is a certain pressure on me just because I "lead" and I'm "older". I've become frustrated and disappointed at myself for not upholding these roles in the correct fashion lately. My pride allows me to think that I know everything that has to deal with God; that because I am a leader, I am very holy (far from it). I need to snap out of it and realize that I am nothing; if it wasn't for Christ's love, I would have continued to dwell deeper into my sin.

So God, please help me to drop my pride. The words of this mouth is not from the heart that was born from your hands, but of my own selfishness. I've always had this misconstrued conception of standing so high when it was the Lord who has given me this opportunity as a leader to help others. The right words may sounds good, but I need to depend more on the Holy Spirit and God's Word[s]. I can lead with my own words, but how will it feel leading with the right heart, a heart after God's own?

Amen.